Love Letters a Generation Forgot to Write

    {Genesis for this real story goes back to1985. This is based on a beautiful love story between one of my colleagues, Lieutenant Amit and his Kashmiri girl friend. I will refer to her as Desi. The way, I have decided to narrate the story is by assuming the plot and setting in the surroundings of 2020, when communication means like mobiles are easily available. Flow of the narration goes in letter form, assuming as it has been written by my colleague to her, as letter was the only way of communication during those days. Letter starts from succeeding paragraph.}    


    First telephonic conversation with you was within a few days, after we exchanged our contacts. Your husky voice caught my attention, it was deep. I could make out that I was hearing voice of a gorgeous person. Exhilarating wave of your voice was like a tonic to me, it was the voice from the heart. It was beautiful. It was not the voice of mere tongue and the lips.

    At that moment, I did not realize, that you will be the standard, by which I will judge beauty for the rest of my life; I will measure every touch to your breath on my skin, every voice to your voice, and every mind to your mind. You became a measure for my idea of perfection.        

    Yes, first conversation with you was formal and friendly. You made me comfortable. You were frank and forthright. Yes, we did laugh together and that too from our hearts. Do you remember, you having shared your images with me? I could read your beauty through your eyes. This was very apparent during video interaction. I know for sure, that eyes of a woman are the doorway to her heart, and this is where, I found your love residing. Your beauty flows through your smiling eyes. It is not vanity to feel that you have charming eyes; you must cherish and enjoy that beauty.    

    I must confess, you are a stunning girl with brains. Your virtue and modesty, I felt from the beginning, enlighten your charm and make you brighter than the stars of heaven. Influence of your power, it is in vain to resist. I can feel the power of your inner voice. I have discreetly known that you have your own views of things. This is what I love in you.

    I need to imbibe the spirit of patriotism from you. By now, I know for sure, for you, national flag is more than just cloth and ink. Patriotism is supporting your country all the time, this I think, no one knows better than you. Your thoughts on loyalty for your nation flow freely through your communication. As one sees, and it is easy to perceive, you believe firmly in true independence, which can co-exist with freedom, by exercising the right in doing and saying what’s right. You have manifested it number of times during our conversations.

    I love to hear you. You speak like a small child, with full innocence at your command. That brings a smile to me. This is because, you live in the world of truth, and that is good enough a reason for you to retain your innocence in abundance. You may know, this exists with your own moral code, which makes you live by own integrity and bravery. Do you know how it happens? In my opinion, you love yourself the way you are. That makes you stay positive. It makes your beauty come from the inside. Desi, it is about you. I can see you through famous quote by Lao Tzu, “Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage”. Here, I wish to lay more emphasis on the word ‘COURAGE’. Hope you will be able to relate to the context.

    With you, I can speak for hours. My conversation with you has been overwhelming. You listen with curiosity and speak with honesty. And it happens out of your integrity; pulse of the same, I can feel vividly. I have found you listening to understand. The way, you make a conversation, I find, it creates interest. You set yourself free, and that is the reason, I find you creating a flow of words. You speak up for the things that matter to you. I, clearly, can perceive, you are a person with brains. You steer your own direction, and that is good enough the reason to reinforce my belief. This makes a strong case making you worthy of being loved and adored. I will wish, you continue to say and don’t let pass the moment without saying anything, otherwise, life becomes a regret when we look back. I find you doing a marvelous job. I know that you take a stand and speak for truth; this catches my eye and attention. It is good to see you using your voice and speaking your mind. You make yourself heard. Whatever may be the situation, I am sure, you will always find your voice.

    Most beautiful things in the world, I believe, are beyond the mandate of words, eyes or even touch. Yes, it is possible to see through heart. Here, I am talking about you being intensely emotional. You are an emotional person. You know, emotion(s) can break heart. At the same time, emotions alone can pave the way to healing. So far, I can count three occasions, when I could feel you crying. Don’t be ashamed to cry or weep. It is fine. It is perfectly fine to grieve. Tears are only water. And you know, every living thing needs water to grow. You are a wonderful person. Your wounded heart will heal, when you will revisit good memories of love and affection. They are sealed inside you to comfort you. Good, you cry, there are many who don’t feel anything at all.  But there is a word of caution, one ought to hold on to one’s heart, otherwise, one loses control of the head too. It is important not to suppress your feelings altogether when you are depressed or overwhelmed with emotions. At times, things turn out to be more beautiful than we expected them to be.

    You are an extremely sincere person, as I have discovered you so far. Rather, I define you with the simile of Pearl, when it comes to authenticity. As I have been able to see you below many beautiful layers of your personality, I have found you speaking with honesty and acting with integrity. That alone makes you stand tall. That is precisely the reason, you appear so original.

    That picture of yours, where you are standing next to your vehicle, catches my eye to capture your spirit of adventure in style. That speaks volumes on the way you want to live your life. That shows, ‘APUN’ wants to live a life, which is on your terms. Yes, I liked the style. That is why, I have always maintained, you are different. My wish, you live with your life, the way you want and always stay blessed in your journey of adventure. Your images speak of a vibrant and pious soul inside you.

    I am well aware; you are a girl with the heart of a sports person. But that alone does not define you. You are more than that. You live with the toughness of an athlete, and you breathe through very softness of the most beautiful woman on the planet, which, rather, defines your uniqueness. You are a watery sign, but I can feel your fragrance reaching me in abundance, as an earthy sign, and that speaks of your aura. Your aura makes me see poetry and galaxies of red roses. Someone has rightly stated that souls recognize each other by vibes and not by appearances, which looks true to me in abundance, when I relate myself to you. That is why, I find, your aura grabbing me by my hand, as the Moon pulls the tide, and the tide pulls the sand. I want you to love yourself, and love so much, so that your energy and aura rejects anyone who does not know your worth.




    Author : Col. N. S. Malhan

    Col. Narinder Singh Malhan was commissioned from the Indian Military Academy (IMA) Dehradun. On having served for almost four decades in Indian Army, he loves to share his experiences through his writings. In his opinion, every life has a lot to unfold. Each life is unique and is a historical document with its own identity. He strongly feels, real discovery is through introspection by looking back in own time. He believes, sharing own experiences are like revisiting life's milestones with more intensity. He thoroughly enjoyed his journey in uniform.


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